Starting Over

They were high school sweethearts. Married at aindescribable aches of starvation from a lack of
young age, they blindly stepped from their parents'affection from the spouse he wanted to forgive.
front porch onto the road of life. Sure, they had theirAbout two years later they were divorced.
ups and downs. Who doesn't? But, after nearly tenYears have now passed by and I hear he's had a
years together, and four children later, somethingfew tragic incidents occur, and an automobile
began to change. The marriage began to fall apart.accident that was nearly fatal. But, he's back in
He couldn't believe it! The last five years of their liveschurch now. He realized that all along he was asking
together seemed to be picturesque. They hadthe wrong person the wrong question. You see,
converted to the apostolic faith from a traditionalyears earlier, he watched a Baptist evangelist named
southwest Louisianan religion. They were at theDavid Ring. Rev. Ring had turned his heart around
church every time the doors were open.through his personal testimony, planting the seed that
I remember their eldest son. He couldn't have beeneventually led to his conversion to Pentecost. He
more than six years old at the time. The next doorremembered those words Rev. Ring had said, "Don't
neighbors had two teenage girls sunbathing in theirask 'why' ask 'what'. What is it Lord that you want
back yard. The little boy, in his zeal for the Lord,me to learn from this situation? What is it that you
raised his little toy rifle toward the girls and said, "Y'allwant me to become?" A funny thing isn't it? No
better get in the house, put some clothes on and gomatter how far you fall down the side of that
to church!"mountaintop, or how long you spend at the bottom,
Since they began living for the Lord, they wereyou'll never forget the view you saw from up there!
blessed with a better paying job than ever before,If you see him today, you can see all the scars and
purchased a new home, new vehicles: all a far crymarks of the tragedies he's borne. You can look into
from what they had as newlyweds. He became athe face of a 35-year-old man and see miles of rough
locally-licensed minister of the U.P.C.I., fulfilling a lifelongterrain traveled. He jokingly once told someone, "Boy,
dream of his. Since he was a small boy, he hadyou don't need a map to see where you shouldn't go.
always wanted to become a minister. So, whenJust look at the highway marked upon my face!" If
everything seemed to be going so well, how couldyou'd ask him if he could go back in time, would he
things take such a turn for the worst?do things differently? If he knew everything that
He'd discovered his wife had been unfaithful for overwas going to happen, and all he'd have to endure to
a year. He began to question God, "Why is thisend up where he is today, would he do it all over
happening to me? Why are you letting this happen?again? Looking into the eyes of my four children I'd
Where are you, God?" (Have you ever been therehave to say, "Yes! Yes I would!" Through grace it's
before?) It ate at his soul like a festering, cancerouscalled starting over. I can't change the past or take
tumor. The more he prayed and the harder he tried,back the years, but I can make a decision to keep
the worse things seemed to get. Slowly he sank intomoving forward. If my children and I are ever going
the pit of despair, wallowing in the mire of what wasto make it through this world to meet the Lord on
now his life. Rather than tucking his head and pressingthat distant shore, I must lead the way. I have
forward, he slowly began to take half-stepsexperienced things in this life that I wouldn't have
backward. One day he peered into the mirror andotherwise. I now have empathy with someone rather
found himself to be unrecognizable. "Who is this manthan a simple sympathy for them. We had an old
I see before me? What have I become?" But, hissaying we'd cry out in the Marine Corps, "Lead,
anger and bitterness toward the Lord were toofollow, or get out of the way! Semper Fi, (1) Hoorah!"
great. He drank alcohol in large quantities to try to1. Semper Fi is the short form for the Latin phrase
numb the pain he felt. Not only did he feel that GodSemper Fidelis; simply meaning "Always Faithful." It is
had allowed this to happen to him and that He hadthe proud motto of the United States Marine Corps.
abandoned him, but he was also feeling the